I don’t know about you but I’ve finally had enough of letting the universe beat me down. I’m 42 years old at the time of this writing and I have worked my fingers to the bone trying to do the “right thing” and work for a living instead of using the talent and passion inside of me to be my true self and fulfill my destiny. When I was around 8 years old I got my first guitar. By the time I was 14 I felt that spark, that meaning of life. I wanted to play music and I was determined. I wrote this around that time and it has always been close to my heart.
I Did give it a good go, played in several garage bands and eventually had some small success playing in local clubs around North Carolina. Of course that band (Skurj) disbanded when I was in my early twenties, I tried once more after that but it didn’t play out. So what happened? I gave up and poured myself into working hard and trying to make a living ignoring that spark inside of me. I mean I still play and record but that’s it. My true passion, my calling in life has become a hobby!
Of course that’s not all of it, although I think ignoring my soul passion was the root cause. Several bad relationships, horrible jobs and broken dreams later the straw that broke the camel’s back fell directly on me. After working in a Cemetery for almost 5 years I was promoted to supervisor. Now I know that doesn’t sound like a bad thing, LoL well the promotion anyway but at that point the company I worked for (StoneMor) had gotten so bad that the situation and the demands made on me were impossible. I still tried my best but I felt trapped. Eventually It got so bad that several times in a two week span I started getting chest pains at work, not from the physical labor but from the stress. It was then and there I knew I had to get out. So I did. Since then I have had a revelation. I can’t put myself through that anymore. I MUST focus on my passion and find my true path!
Ok well that’s enough venting for now. Tomorrow I want to start getting into the good stuff about how we can improve our lives.
I will leave you with this solo I recorded, It is aptly titled “Hello World” Hopefully you enjoy it. Often I speak better through music than I do through words and I hope this speaks to you.